You have grown into a man that I don’t even deserve
If perfect had a mascot u wouldn’t even have to audition
Your intelligence has relevance and your heart has definition
Thoughts of rekindling flames have turned to hopes with no backbone
Standing strong is now something I will have to do alone
No matter how bad my heart longs for u
We live in two different worlds now
And Its tuff
I want to reconstruct myself into something u would actually want. But
Being true to my self is priority, so I’m hoping you’ll learn to love me, for me
Not some smooth chick that I pretend to be
Cuz the truth is I’m ruff on the edges
I’m focused but I don’t have all my stuff together
But the amount of love I have for u is earthshaking
I go hard in the race for ya heart but your rejection has my soul breaking
Your mouth never actually uttered I’m not wifey
But your essences is so thickly intoxicating its making me realize that I just might not be
I feel as if you have earned better than me
And I’m not trying to drown my self in self pity
But every time you walk away on your back I can see angel wings
And I can’t fly that high
But I want to learn how to sore
So we can hold hands in distant lands
Your everything
Is what I want to explore
But
I doubt I’ll ever get that chance again
Bubble baths and candles lit I just want to romance again
But my past cut off my feet so I doubt will ever dance again
I’m in between settling, and you… my perfect man